For Every High There is a Low

I believe we left with almost having the back pasture finished. We were 3\4 of the way there and then it happened. While we finished up the back part of the pasture, I had all the kids on the water slide playing. Jimmy mentioned since we finished the back part, we should take a break run into town and grab supplies. I went to get the kids off the slide and get them ready to go. I walk inside and head toward the back of my house, when I heard water running and seen it creeping down my hallway. It had already found my bedroom, the kids

bedrooms, and my foyer. One of my children, turned on the tub and a rag clogged the drain, leading to a very flooded house. Thankfully, we do have insurance who will take care of everything. It is so overwhelming. Unfortunately for us, we had to wait 3 days due to Memorial Day weekend. We finally had someone come out today and dry out the floors, while we took it all up and prepared for clean up and replacement. As of present, it is very overwhelming. Is it going to stop me? Absolutely not. We plan to tackle this head on. We already in the process of placing all the necessary steps in mind to set everything in motion for repairing and replacing what’s needed in our home.

As clean up was becoming well under way today, we also suffered some losses on our farm. I do understand that living on a farm isn’t easy, and it does come with its share of losses. That doesn’t make it any easier. We care for our animals, all the way down to the smallest ones. Today we lost our 2 rabbits, Stella and Peaches, and One of my Mama Hens Adrian. I now have an orphaned baby with a possible broke leg, and 4 broken hearted children. They

adored their rabbits. It’s never easy losing an animal. It is apart of it, but my children doesn’t quite understand that part yet. They are still learning the dynamic of it all. On our farm, although everything may have a purpose and a place, these animals are still treated like our family. They are loved, spoiled, and taken very good care of. I have a deep appreciation of what each animal brings to the table. They each of something to teach us. They help us to grow as humans.They teach us compassion, responsibility, and gives us all a sense of purpose. Though the loss is never easy, I am still so blessed to have the ability to give my children this kind of life. They learn lessons you can’t be taught in school. Time will go on, and their hearts will hurt a little less. This will give them strength, wisdom, and understanding in dealing similar situations in the future.

I am a strong believer that in pain comes purpose. As of right now, this seems like a lot. It is overwhelming at times. I am also very well aware it could all have been so much more worse. We have water damage, we have more work ahead, we have some setbacks. One thing I know for sure is nothing worth having don’t come easy. If it does come easy, it isn’t worth having to start with. If your going to have something worth keeping you have to work for it, you have to be willing to fight for it, you have to be willing to put in the work in order to have that one thing or person, worth keeping. There is so much truth to that. When this happens you appreciate it so much more. When it is all said and done, we will all appreciate our

home, our pasture, our farm so much more than we did before. In life you are going to face setbacks. You are going to have those moments that will test every ounces of patience you have left in your body. It’s how you handle them, that defines how your future will go. I know that this is only a phase and this too will pass. I have to look at the bigger picture. I will be moving forward and a little faster with revamping and renovating my house, but when its finished I know it will look awesome. I also have once again been reminded, my circle of people, those that I do hold so near and dear, are so amazing. I am so blessed to have each of these people in my life.

This past couple of days has been anything but easy. It has been hard, trying, emotionally draining at times, but when the going gets tough, my family, my friends, come together to work it all out. I am once again reminded God is close and continues to keep his hand on my shoulder. I have cried into the neck of my sweet donkey, only to be asked if I could bring my kids over for a sleepover, in order for me to have a mental health day. I then, was taken out to the movies, and out for ice cream just to decompress for the day. It was so therapeutic.

Off topic, Top Gun 2: Maverick is absolutely amazing! I highly recommend you go check it out. Anyways, I know the row I have to hoe is long and not easy but it will all be well worth it when its all said and done. Right now, its one thing after the next, but that too will pass. One day at some point in time, I can look back, maybe laugh and see the lesson and purpose in it all. Just remember, when faced with trials and tribulations, keep pushing, and no matter what Do Not Quit. It is temporary and will not last. You will get through this and realize there were so many blessings you may have failed to realize along the way. It will eventually pass, and life will go on. You will have highs and wins, but you will also have lows and losses. Take your lows and losses as lessons, and allow it to give you some wisdom.. I hope and pray that you all had an amazingly blessed Memorial Day weekend. In retrospect, we sure did. In case nobody told you, I love you.

-Beck